Time I put something on here.
I haven't been the best blogger around, haven't posted anything in ages ,which prompted my friend Tracey to write and ask if I am doing fine.
Fine, I am. Just haven't had anything to blog about. No major things going on, in fact, one could describe my life as boring and me as bored. I need to get out and get involved in something before my brain turns to mush and I forget how to behave in a social situation.
Surely not going out today. If you've been watching weather news than you know that Southern California is getting pelted with heavy rain, some thunder is going on, some lightening, some street flooding and the best place to be is home in a sweat suit reading a good book, which is what my plan for today will be. Well, might toss in a load of wash just to feel busy.
My social engagements this week consisted of two trips to Honda. My CRV is 10 years old and has 43,000 miles which tells you that since I moved to Ventura I haven't done much driving, nor have I had the car serviced. My son in law , Dustin, told me it is time to take the car to Honda to make sure everything is right with the car. $500 later I can report everything is going right. Actually the car is in great shape, just needed a brake and power steering flush plus all the things that are listed in the mid-level $219 service package. I'm good now until 47,000 miles which could be years from now. Eventually son Lee and I are going car shopping. Not that there is anything wrong with my Honda, or that it has too many miles, but more because it has the most uncomfortable driver seat in the world. I drive around with two pillows to ward off a stiff back, stiff neck and sore bottom.
I've been eyeballing the Ford Escape. Looks like it has a good seat. Anyone drive one?
Heath Ledger. Sad event, true. Listening to all the news reports and I thought to myself if I suddenly died of natural causes and investigators came in here, they could say it was likely a drug overdose. I have many of the same prescriptions Heath did in my medicine cabinet. Don't we all have some? I've got a $20 bill, too, and some white powder spilled on my bathroom counter which is not drugs but powder...... I'm ashamed of the media and many of the conclusions they jumped to assume.
Here at the active senior living home? The most activity is the almost revolving door action of people either dying or moving to assisted living and then another 85 or 94 year old moving in to fill that vacancy. It is sad for me to see those I have learned to love having memory loss, confusion, or serious health issues. We do have two folks in their late 90's who are sharp still, driving still, and with active social lives, still involved in groups they belonged to here long before they felt they could or shouldn't live alone anymore. But over all, those I tend to visit with every day end up telling me the same stories they told me yesterday, or the day before, or the day before that. I try to act like I never heard that tale before, but I can feel myself gritting my teeth. Ain't good.
When I go out I always drive around a bit , checking out neighborhoods. Ran across one just blocks from here that I like, a condo complex with lots of open space and grass and my one request -- two car garages. One rental came up on Craig's list and I was going to go look at it, but my son Lee sent me a long email saying how he would worry about me living alone again, how even though I don't fancy living here, at least there is a dining room with food if I don't want to cook and if I didn't feel well, there is that option of room service and there are people here who would and do watch out for me. So it is a safety thing for the mind of my kids, but oh how I often have a desire to cook a decent meal, putter in a garden, park my car in a garage, have more space, a guest room so pals could come visit from the desert or Walla Walla. After my next PET scan I will give it more serious thought.
Trips?
Thought about going back to PS for a week or so to visit pals, but my gosh the rents are so high, even the elcheapo hotels are over $200 a night in the season. Glad I didn't go this month cus my friend Lori tells me it has been very cold in the desert, too. Not the rain, but surely not warm weather. Checked out places for FEB, but again prices are high or there are no vacancies. Will think about going in March.
Then I thought about a real trip , you know like a cruise, or going somewhere terrific, but being a single it means paying double. Made me miss my Mom all the more. She was always up for a trip, she was fun to share quarters with, and traveling with her was always such a delight. And, about now is when I would be in Seattle for a visit with her, so my heart has been a bit sad this last week and it seems I have dreamed of Mom every night. I'm thinking that in May, if I am well, of going to Walla Walla and putting flowers on her grave for her birthday. I always spent her birthday with her. The sad part of her being buried so far away is not being able to go to the grave site all the time. Now I know how she felt with her parents buried in Spokane, WA and she living miles away in either Palm Springs or Seattle.
I know what you are going to tell me, how a cruise line with pair you up with a room mate or I should ask a gal pal to go with me on a trip. I don't like, in my senior years, to share a bathroom, or even a bedroom. Never minded with Mom, but do mind with other people. I think I would turn down any offers from Robert Redford just because I have gotten so spoiled in my single years of not having to share a bathroom.... not sharing a bedroom with someone who wants the t.v. on all night long kind of thing.
When I lost 20 lbs during radiation and chemo, I was sure it would come back. But, I've never gained back the weight and have a lot of muscle mass loss. I need to build back up my bony legs, they look bad, so I never put on a skirt. Should I join a gym and work with a personal trainer? We have a gym in this building. No trainer, though. I may go check out the machines and see if there is something that looks like it would give me power house legs again.
I try to gain weight, but all the ice cream and eating a croissant every day isn't packing it on. On the good side of the ledger, I haven't lost any more weight , but listen, weighting in at 110 pounds is a bit embarrassing. The last time I weighed that I must have been 14. Any suggestions? All the magazines I pick up have features on losing weight, but none on putting it on.... and no, candy doesn't interest me, seemed to have lost my sweet tooth in all that treatment. Used to love desert and now mostly order a yogurt for desert. Maybe if they made decent pies here I could gain weight.
Suggestions on a trip, ( I have over 100,00 air miles I can use) a diet, all are welcome!
If you were sitting here now, your suggestion would be that I go get a hot shower, get dressed, go read the morning edition of the LA Times........... so that is what I shall go do.
That's it for this Sunday in January......
Autie Jan,
If you want - I make some excellent cookies and baked goods (and have the figure to prove it). Not all of them are super sweet. If you like I could make you a weight gaining care package. Let me know.
Love,
Anea
Posted by: Anea | January 30, 2008 at 11:01 PM