As a matter of fact, I have been back since Thanksgiving. I was in Seattle right up to almost turkey day, jetting back home just in time to go to my son Lee's ( Leegolberg.com) for a lovely Thanksgiving and some family fun.
I won't lie to you, it has been very hard not having my mom in my life now. I canceled my unlimited calling plan to Seattle. Have had that so many years and so many calls, usually as often as three times a day as Mom was failing. It's so difficult, reaching for a phone to have a chat with Mom, then to realize she is gone.
At nearly 96 she had a long and full life and it is and was selfish of me to want her to go on forever.
I stayed at my brother Stan's in Seattle and that was good for the grieving process. He and his wife are wonderful hosts and made me feel very much at home in their home. It was cold and raining and I was unprepared for that cold, so there I was wearing my mother's sweaters and her coat and getting some emotional comfort from that, too.
Didn't do any book writing during my more than three weeks in Seattle. Mostly I focused on breaking up Mom's home, packing up her treasures and donating things to charities. It was a heart wrenching job, but got it all done before I jetted back. Sad to think I have lost not only my mother but the place I considered my second home for 20 some years.
As far as my book goes, my son Lee is reading and editing it and when he finishes off all the chapters then I will begin the rewrite and get it tighter, better, ready for a publisher to take a look. That could take me well over a month, but that's okay, I need something now to take my thoughts away from sad ones and keep me busy.
Thank you to all of you who sent me sympathy messages. I appreciated those so much and they meant so much to me.
I've begun my Chanukah and Christmas shopping and begun to boycot Walmart. Made a run there today in search of a particular t-shirt for a grandson, the lines for checkout had 15 to 20 people in them. I left my cart, and my almost purchase and left the store -- vowing not to return. I'll buy my gifts online and save the aggravation of malls and parking and crowds. I wanted to tell each person in the parking lot to forget shopping at that store - no checkers, long lines, more pain than pleasure.
I've ordered some things on Amazon. Well, the orders went in and then promptly shipped out and were delivered. Didn't see any place on their order page where one could say not to deliver until a certain date so family and friends already have their gifts and it isn't even December yet. Anyone else run in to that problem shopping online?
Then I ran into a snarly seller on Ebay. Although he said I could use Paypal , he insisted the paypal charge be through a credit card, claiming regular paypal funds never reach him. A bunch of BS , if you ask me and I won't go to that seller again. Yeah, I know, it tis the season to be joyful.
Enough of this ramble. Shouldn't you be busy holiday shopping?
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