Raise your glasses, we're going to do a toast....
I am cancer free! After nearly four years of therapy, the words yesterday on all my scans was " No cancer."
Whew!
It's been a long haul and fight and felt like 14 years rather than four -- but now it is history and I am going to do just as the doctor said...
" go out now and live!"
I want to thank you all for your support and love and care and concern for me these years... we were all in this fight together and so you are just as much a winner as am I.
The fan club continues. We all have loved ones or friends or just acquaintances with cancer and they need the same kind of support you gave to me, so keep saving your magazines and delivering them to hospitals. Member Mike Barer sends them in boxes to Seattle area hospitals and says they are from the Jan Curran Fan Club and I bet a lot of heads turn in bewilderment wondering who the heck is Jan Curran! The same must happen when David Zarkin delivers magazines in the St. Paul area.
How do I feel? Still very tired from the radiation and still coughing - also a side effect - but that will be gone in a few months and I can tolerate it. Anything is tolerable after any recall of the hell that was radiation.
What is next for me with the cancer? The doctor said not to even think the word , just be fine.. and in six months go have another PET and CAT scan.... so here I am coughing and tired and packing boxes to move. .. and a bit stunned.
I've been having scans every 3 or 6 months since 1996 and I always go in very positive and then the news is not so positive and I have a bit of a heart break knowing I have 6 months ahead of chemotherapy and all that means.
This time, with son Tod along, I had no feelings one way or the other... was rather feeling that I would learn when to start chemo again. When the doctor said the news was fantastic, I just sat there, stunned. I told him I know how to react to bad news, but good news - been so long coming I didn't react, I just sat there and let son Tod do the talking and asking the questions.
We celebrated, in 115 degrees, by having a bagel and creme cheese at a favorite stop on the way home. Yeah, we called all my other kids from the car to share the good news, and then I called my brother Stan and a few other family and friends.... yet I still feel like maybe it isn't real, did he really say no cancer??
Back to my chores here, but wanted to let you know my good news.
How are things with you?
xxoo Jan
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